SD-7......hope it works out for you buddy.
Looks like you have 2 choices. (1) stay in and try to be happy (2) get out and try to be happy
Your wife evidently wants to stay in and it looks like at least one child is involved. Only you know if the relationship will work with you out of the org. Seen something about fornication, but don't know if that is still an issue or in the past. Strange to me that your wife would play the pre-marital sex card to these men. If you decide to stay in....just put the blinders on, shield yourself from the crap and be happy. I only became unhappy the more active I got and the more I seen.
I don't know you, but my guess is you are young and a born-in JW. Some of your thoughts in word and actions in of itself is proof that the religion is not emotionally healthy.
Stop with the anger driving, you can unintentionally have an accident. Stop with the hitting yourself, because it's ridiculous, immature and your young wife will lose respect for you. Above all stop with the suicide talk, because that's not the answer and you need to be there for your child.
Calm down, be rational and just try to get your family through life with some measure of happiness. These men only have control of your life and happiness as much as you let them have.
Think About It